I meant to write this blog on Wednesday but life kept getting in the way and like normal I procrastinated and put it off till today. Perhaps someday I will learn to do things when I am thinking about them rather than putting them off till later and sometimes never getting them done. Wednesday was my normal weigh-in day (due to the BLC Challenge that I am doing on www.SparkPeople.com) so when I woke up I weighed myself! I was very happy to find that the scale reported a 2.9lb loss since last week. This now puts me at 202.4! I have not weighed this little for over 5 years!
Of course this makes me very happy. I know that it is still going to take time to get to my final goal (and that my goal may change along the way) but just knowing that I am starting to move in the right direction more consistently makes me very happy. On the other hand I am not going to let the number on the scale rule me like I used to. As long as my weight continues to go down over time I know that there will be daily. weekly and even monthly fluctuations. Looking back over the 6 weeks though since I started this current BLC challenge I am glad to realize that I have lost a total of 5 pounds in 6 weeks! That is just under a pound a week which is right around what I was hoping to lose! If I keep up at this pace I will be several pounds under 200 by the end of the challenge in December.
In other news…..
I recently decided to dye my hair. Now this is nothing unusual except that since I started dying my hair when I was 16 years old I have either gone for some shade of red (or burgundy) or in recent years I was a blond for quite a while. This time I decided to return to my roots (literally) and dye my hair mahogany!
So what do you think? It isn’t the best picture, granted but I think I like how it turned out.
I will try to write about Halloween tomorrow… You know, when it is ACTUALLY HALLOWEEN!!!! It really amazes me how the governments (city, state, federal) all over our wonderful nation seem to think that it is ok to change the date that we celebrate Halloween but they would never even dream of doing the same thing to Christmas. Does anyone else have a problem with the fact that people are being ‘encouraged’ to do their trick-or-treating today rather than tomorrow? I know I do!
For now I will end this entry but I will do my best to try and write more regularly in the future. I am sure as I get more practice with blogging that I will also get much more interesting as well! LOL
I have been thinking a lot lately about healthy living, or a healthy lifestyle, and what that entails. I honestly thought that I had it all figured out. I mean to lose weight you have to burn more calories than you take in right? Then when you get to your goal weight this way you just make sure you take in the same number of calories that you burn in order to maintain your weight. It all seems so simple. The problem is that there is WAY MORE to the equation than that.
I have been stuck somewhere around the 205 range (give or take a few pounds) for over a year now. For the life of me I have been wondering why that is… Now that I have really started looking into the whole healthy blogging community and all the wonderful blogs that are already out there being written by wonderful people who have already found their balance I realize what I have been doing wrong all this time.
My problem is simple….
I thought I was living a Healthy Lifestyle…
But what I have actually been doing is…
Yes that dreaded word. I made this realization when I started thinking back on all the things I have been doing.
- I have been restricting foods. Telling myself that I shouldn’t be eating this that or the other cause it is “bad for me”. BIG NO-NO!
- I have been exercising. I know this doesn’t sound bad but let me explain why it is. I have been exercising, not for the sheer joy of moving my body and building my strength but because I “have to” if I want to burn calories and lose weight. Totally wrong reason to work out!
- I have been living (and dying) based on the number on the scale. I feel disappointed when it is up and giddy with happiness when it is down. Do I want to live like that the rest of my life?
- I just have not been enjoying the process… How am I supposed to live a “healthy lifestyle” if the way I am living it makes me miserable?
So… In conclusion, I now know that I have to find a way to live a healthy lifestyle in such a way that I can be happy for the rest of my life living that way and still be able to lose the weight I need to lose to get “healthy” in the first place! In other words, I have to find my “balance” like so many of the wonderful women whose blogs I have been devouring online recently.
If there is one thing in my life which has always been a battle for me it would have to be living a healthy lifestyle. Since I was in third grade and started gaining weight, going from a skinny little girl to a size 16 by the time I got to high school, it has been a struggle to get my weight, and my life, under control. I have lost and gained more pounds than I can imagine over the years and now, at 30 years old, I am still about seventy-five pounds overweight. I tell you this little bit of background so that I can tell you about the traitorous thing the scale did to me this morning.
Every Wednesday I have a weigh-in scheduled for the BLC (Biggest Loser Challenge) that I am signed up for on www.SparkPeople.com . Now this past week I had honestly fooled myself into believing that today I would have a great weight loss on the scale today (totally forgetting about all the sweets that my alter-ego has been sneaking of course) so when I stepped on my balance board this morning and heard the scale on my Wii Fit Plus game tell me that I had gained 0.9lbs I was furious!!! After all I put in over 300 fitness minutes this past week and I was eating so good!!
Of course I know logically that my journey is bound to have it’s ups and downs. After all I did lose weight the past two weigh-ins in a row before this. Plus my gain was not even quite a whole pound and I know that it could have been so much worse than that. But of course when I saw that number all I could think about at the time was, “What is the point? I try and I try and I just can’t seem to get and stay below the 205 mark!” It didn’t take me long though before I realized that I had done this to myself. Over the course of the last week I allowed my alter-ego to indulge in about half of a turtle pie that my fiancé so sweetly picked up for us at the store on top of I don’t even know how many mini chocolate bars, etc. My “good eating” week really wasn’t as good as I led myself to believe and I know it. I am actually lucky that the damage wasn’t worse than it was.
So I decided to blog about it in the hopes that admitting my shortcomings here in public for all the world to see would help me to learn to be more accountable. I have come up with a plan for the next week to do my best to stay on track. There are four things I intend to do and I will list them here. Please feel free to check in on me to make sure I am holding to it!
1. I will not allow myself more than two sweet treats between now and my next weigh-in.
2. I will continue to drink a minimum of 8- 8 oz glasses of water each day.
3. I will exercise for at least 30 minutes 5 out of 7 days this week. (or more if I feel up to it)
4. I will make sure that I eat healthy portion sizes of ‘good-for-me’ foods and try to consume no more than 1600 calories a day.
Hopefully this simple list of things will help me to take off the weight that I gained this week (and hopefully even more) and get me back on track to becoming a leaner, fitter me! I know that I will stumble… but as long as I pick myself up and continue to move forward I know everything will be ok.